My Black n White Dairy

There comes a time in our life when we unveil our souls and tear off the masks. Be unashamedly naked with our hearts You always leave a trail of love after our conversations..... I travel through those pathways in the darkness of the dusk and find my way back to you only to find deeper n love with You … I found every dream I lost, in YOU. I surrendered parts of my vulnerability to YOU. YOU  revived what was lost & restored what was shattered. YOU lit a satiable flame in my soul. YOU ignited every passion I had doused. YOU taught me to untie my thoughts YOU awoke those feelings which I never admitted to myself. YOU are the only one whom I wouldn't mind losing my sleep for.  The vibes You give, the smile You put on my face, Your love that fills my heart makes me realize  that YOU are the one worth waiting for !!!!!!

  When your ship of life hits the iceberg , you will run with all your might towards a life boat . Unlucky ones shall perish. I got lucky enough to find my place. It's my second chance in Life & Love . I am giving it my all once again. It's my turn to be happy and I'm happy for my shipwreck.  This was a storm we both were deliberately avoiding. But we were thrown into this whirlpool called Love without even us realizing. Sometimes things are beyond our control. I couldn't help but fall in love with him completely , insanely and passionately. This was one of the unacceptable corners of life you could be in. But still it was the most perfect thing to do. Then came that single moment which changed my Life forever. Love knocked and Life smiled at me .     In one moment all the happiness which drained from my life came surging back to me. This time I wanted to listen to no one else ,but me - my heart. I wanted to feel alive once again. You are the very reason why I want

  I didn't have an easy marriage.  It was a relationship engulfed in Money , Lust and Abuse, a relationship I wish to erase from my memory forever. Our marriage started on a big blatant lie. From then on for the next thirteen years I was dragged through the most difficult thorny pathways of lies, one after the other . On the very second day of marriage I heard the crumbling voices of my dreams being shattered. He was no where close to what I thought my man would be.  Elderly advices kept pouring in during the initial months. I being a naïve 24 year old inexperienced in the matters of heart kept reassuring myself that everything is going to be alright in days. Days turned to months and months to years but nothing changed. He proved me wrong in every nook and corner of our marriage. Inspite of being unabashedly lied to , I pretended to believe him. Despite being manipulated emotionally and financially I pretended to surrender. Even after being tortured brutally I pretended to forgive

There are some memories we should delete and never play again. It is difficult for me to forgive a person who said treacherous things that he had unapologetically thrown at my face all these years.  "You Knew your words could hurt me deeply and leave me scarred ." "You Knew this and still chose to say them all." You were ruthless in your ways I never understood why I expected you will change. I always hoped that someday the good side of you will eventually come out and make all my patience and efforts worth it . I was naïve to do so. I was being a total idiot for believing you and expecting from you. Today I stopped being that idiot. Now I know you probably wont ever change.  I experienced the toxicity of your behavior for 13 long years.  My promise to self is not to subject myself to any torment ever again. You made a mark on me . The physical injuries may heal but emotionally it is going to bleed forever. It is going to be incredibly difficult for me to forgive an

My teardrop is my love for you Love is my only possession I carry with me wherever I go And mine is still with you. The spring is here The season we met The clear sky and the green earth The blooming buds and the singing birds The winding path is still the same The lonely bench still unoccupied My inability to express the clarity of my feelings Our realization of absolute truth The silence that torn between us I let him love me And loved him like no one else could The warmth of your hand Covered my frozen fingers The strength of your shoulders I leaned on with a tearful heart With every passing moment Which left a lifetime memory We watched together our love die Our inevitable separation As we buried our dreams and our love I watched you walk away from my life An absolute stranger you became in my life forever.................................

I am what I am...... I am a woman. I am a mother. I love myself ... I make mistakes.... I choose the wrong path sometimes. I love music & I'm crazy about it I am passionate about rain, beaches and travelling.... I love to walk in the moonlight... I Cry, I Laugh, I Smile I want to Love and Be Loved Passionately......... At the end of the Day I want to be Happy and that's all matters......................